Faith

"Be faithful in small things because it is in them that your strength lies." - Mother Teresa

To my broken hearted friend,

I know that the world seems to have crumbled around you and your heart must ache more than you ever thought possible but this letter is to tell you that it is all going to be ok...if you just keep your faith.

I know that you are going to have moments where it seems impossible and pointless to keep trying but remember that you are never alone and all you have to do is ask when you need a little help or a push start.

Don't think too much about the big stuff...just focus on one little thing at a time and then slowly move up to one day at a time. And eventually it will turn into one week and even one month at a time that you can handle.

You've never really known your own strength, but I have.  And you are plenty strong enough to make it through.  I promise you that.  And remember I am always here to pick up the slack on the hard parts.

Don't lose your faith in the world or in yourself and most importantly don't lose your faith in love.  It truely does conquer all and it will prevail.  It may not be tomorrow or next week or even next year, but in the end I promise it will.

I love and care about you more than these words could ever say, and I have faith in you and your strength so far beyond what you can see in yourself right now.  So trust me when I say that you are going to be just fine.

So here is to having faith and trusting in God that Life Happens just the way it is supposed to happen, even when you can't see why.

Your,
Forever Friend

Diet Coke Snob

"The difference between genius and stupidity is that genius has its limits."

 - Unknown

So...I guess I would have to consider myself a bit of a snob when it comes to anything I eat or drink.  And its definitely not because I am super anal and picky (pick up on that sarcasm?) its just that I am generally very health conscious and spend most of my meals eating cardboard and water.  So when I do decide to jump off that wagon and enjoy some not-so-healthy food and beverage, I want it to be well worth it and taste just how I like it!  If I'm gonna do it, then I'm gonna do it right!  (And yes I am aware of my horrible dieting skills, moderation is not a word I comprehend). 

Now that you understand where I am coming from I'll explain my stupidity that arose a few nights ago...

So its Sunday night and I have some oh-so-delicious and unhealthy chinese food to eat that my wonderful H ordered.  So of course I have to wash it down with a freezing cold crispy diet coke...right?  And I LOVE my diet cokes, but I only drink a few a week and I like them to be a particular way (surprise surprise).  They have to be icy cold and either out of a can or a fountain drink.  I happen to have some cans on hand but they aren't in the refrigerator.  Crap... I'm hungry and I just refuse to eat this chinese food without my freezing cold favorite diet bev!

Now what?

Ahhh...genius...I'll put it in the freezer!! So I ask my H how long he thinks it will take for my can to get cold without freezing?  He says maybe 20 minutes.  Sweet! I can wait that long to eat for sure.  So I put my can right on the ice in the ice tray.  Mmmm....its gonna be icy cold in no time!

Now your probably thinking....oh no she forgot about it and left in there.  Nope....of course I remembered...I was hungry! So I get it out about 20 minutes later, pop that top and OH BABY its icy cold and perfect!! I dish up some orange chicken, fried rice, and an egg roll and go to town on my meal!! Delicious!! 

But about half way through my meal...I think oh crap I might want a second diet coke, so no problem...I'll just pop another one in the freezer.....bad move.  So I finish my plate...and go on with my lazy Sunday night enjoying my full belly. :)  Ahhh bliss...

Then about 4 hours later around 10:30 pm as I'm vegging on the couch enjoying my recorded shows and thinking about heading up and hit the sac....yep, you guessed it...

KABOOM!!!

Notice the brown slush splattered all over and the whole top of the can missing.

So the answer to the question I posed earlier is....5 hours is too long to leave your diet coke in the freezer.  Idiot!! 

After I get up from hitting the deck (because I was sure a shot gun had just gone off) I realize it was that damn second can of diet coke!! Noooooo!!! So I creep over to the freezer and open the door to find a war zone of diet coke slushy on and in EVERYTHING!!!

FML.

So the moral of the story is...Life Happens...in the effing freezer if you leave your diet coke in there for 5 hours!!!!

Nemesis

"I generally avoid temptation unless I can't resist it."
  - Mae West

The dreaded glorious Friday doughnut...sigh...

Here we go again, its Friday, and I've worked so hard all we long to stick to my diet, work out, get the pounds to start coming off...and there they are just staring at me.....DOUGHNUTS!!!

Whhhyyyyyy?!

So this is what my plan is:  I'll avoid them completely, eat only the healthy food I've brought for myself and it won't be a problem at all...easy breezy right?

YA RIGHT!!

This is what is really going to happen:  I'm gonna think about them alllll day long, maybe walk by and open the box to look (and smell..mmmmm) once or twice, go over it and over it in my head whether its worth it or not, look up the nutrition facts multiple times online, consider eating just a bite, or maybe a half, talk myself out of it (repeat that cycle over and over again about 3,000 times) until the afternoon hits and its do or die...I'll have avoided them all day now...and one of two things will happen:  I'll either take one (or two) really quick and shove it down my throat and enjoy my 30 seconds of blissful gluttony (then regret it immediately after for 3 days and kick myself for the heart burn and guilt it has caused) Or....I'll desperately drag myself away kicking a screaming without eating one and prevail!!  (Not likely)

Ugh...Fridays are the WORST!!!

So as I sit here...in agony...I think I really am going to prevail this week because the problem is, if I have a doughnut...its never just a doughnut.  It'll turn into a fattening sandwich for lunch, mexican food for dinner, skipping the Friday work out, a half assed healthy day Saturday and full blown off the wagon Sunday.  Then I will feel alllll guilty and depressed and have to start all over again on Monday.  And you know what happens a few days after Monday?  Yep you guessed it...EFFING FRIDAY!!!  (No wonder I never lose any weight).

And now I have realized...I just really can't touch the doughnuts...you know why?  I've just figured it out...I can NEVER have another doughnut again in fact,  if I want to EVER have a chance at dropping the lb's!  Because, not only is the doughnut my Nemesis...but it is my GATEWAY DRUG!! It only leads to all kinds of other bad bad bad things!!

I must quit!! Cold turkey!! How does one live in a life without doughnuts?!

So five minutes has passed...and I have come to the conclusion that Life Happens to SUCK without doughnuts!!

Ugh....

Two Great Loves

"A hundred hearts would be too few to carry all my love for you" - Unknown

Today is a tribute to the two great loves in my life (not including my H cause he is a given) :

 Auto my puppy and Chinese Chicken Salads.  Ahhh Bliss....

Today I woke up as usual on a Thursday morning.  The alarm went off at 6:15...hit the Snooze...then it went off again at 6:20...hit the Off (thinking it was the snooze.)  Ahhh back to sleep.  Then I woke suddenly looking around thinking....hmmm it seems offly light for so early in the morning...CRAP its not early...its 6:55..and I have to leave at 7:15 for work!!

Now don't get me wrong, I am a pretty low maintenance girl so this is doable  most days.  But aww man I did not prepare for my day the night before as usual!!  I have to fit in a shower, makeup, throw a cute outfit together, grab some breakfast, pack a lunch, and let my pup Auto out (who is not a morning puppy, and moves even slower than I do in the morning, we're such soul mates teehee!).

So now I'm just in a bad mood, feeling so ugly as I never seem to have enough time to make myself look presentable, tired as all get out, mad at myself for being late AGAIN, and super frustrated that it isn't Saturday yet.  So I'm sloppily put together, grabbing my purse, throwing some earrings on and I go to Auto's little house that he sleeps in, already frustrated at how long I know its gonna take him to get out and go potty and what do I find when I unzip the door...

Now I don't know about you...but this was all I needed to wash all my irritations, frustrations, and everything elses away.  How can you not smile at this? I instantly forgot everything that was bothering me and laughed out loud, waking my H!! We truly could learn a thing or two from our dogs cause nobody knows how to enjoy life more than my pup Auto.  

So here is to one of my two great loves in this world, Auto. It truly does not matter what else is going wrong around me...he never ceases to put a smile on my face. :)

Now for my second great love...probably could of guessed it would be a food right?

The oh so sacred Chinese Chicken Salad...

Now unless you have never ever eaten a meal with me before (which is very unlikely if you know me at all, cause God knows this girl loves to eat) than you probably already know of my love for chinese chicken salads.  But for those of you who don't know...let me just explain that I am a bit of a connoisseur of them.  I have had them anywhere and everywhere and could tell you everything about what makes up each of one that ever existed. 

In fact, if there were a contest for being able to identify chinese chicken salads from around the globe and/or eating the most chinese chicken salad in one sitting....I would be Champion of the World. 

That being said, I will continue with my day:  So work was a typical long day, had to spend my lunch at the bank changing accounts and credit cards, unenthusiastically ate all my healthy packed food throughout the day (still on that diet of course),  sat in a butt load of traffic on the way home, came home to a dirty house, then forced my butt to get on the treadmill for 40 minutes. Ugh...exhausted.

So once i finished working on my fitness, I came down to the kitchen to try out my new recipe for a Chinese Chicken Salad.... Now I knew this was going to go one of two ways...Disaster or Bliss.

And low and behold, I put all of the ingredients together (along with the chicken my H BBQ'd for me earlier, as I still have a fear of cooking chicken, plus he makes the BEST chicken in the world) and guess what happened...Bliss!!!! 

(Here is a pic, minus the chicken...mmmm) 

And I just have to admit, for a healthy version of this salad, which normally includes won tons and fatty dressing, it was DELICIOUS!! I was so proud of myself and I sat there enjoying every bite in utter happiness thoroughly enjoying my life for the moment.

So that's all it takes for me folks....my puppy Auto and a great chinese chicken salad.  Ahhh Bliss...

So don't be afraid to admit your love for great things in your life (even if it is a salad). And don't forget to enjoy these simple pleasures...cause that is what makes the world go round and how a blissful

Life Happens.

Engagement Party!!

"Whatever our souls are made of, his and mine are the same." - Emily Bronte

This weekend we had my cousin Christopher and friend Laura's engagement party at my sister's house.  She and her mom threw the most beautiful party I have ever seen!! They always throw incredible parties but I think this might have been their best yet.  So here are a few great shots of the amazing details and some fun party shots too. I'm so excited for two of my favorite peeps in the world to get married!! Love you guys!!

Nearly everything at this party was hand made with love by my sister and her mom and a few helpers. :)

Yes these are real cookies...not only did they look gorgeous but they were delicious too!

All homemade appetizers and dinner...so delicious and beautifully displayed.

Real plates and cloth napkins for each and every of the 100 guests there.

Guest book and hand made name tags so the 2 families and friends could get to know each other.

The very happy couple as they walked in and saw their gorgeous party for the first time!! 

My beautiful sister Marlaina and husband Pat, who created this INCREDIBLE party!!  Congrats Daling!! Its your best one yet I think!!

My sister Melissa and I flashing our offical name tags.

 Prom pic of me and my H :)

The official toast!!

The Bride & The Bridesmaids!!

(And yes my eyes are shut but its the only pic I had...blame it on the champagne.)

The Groom, Groomsmen & Ring Bearer!!

Me and my beautiful God Daughter Presley (also the Flower girl).

A little late night jam session...until the cops came (as usual).

Caught in the act having a 1:00 am cheesecake bite...so much for the diet.

It was an awesome celebration in honor of two incredible people that are perfect for each other.  Cheers to my cousin and my monkey!!  Hold on tight guys, cause this is just the beginning to the crazy way your amazing Life Happens.

Not So Fair

"Only two things are infinite, the universe and human stupidity, and I'm not sure about the former."
-Albert Einstein

So its that time of year again, the time when all of my favorite things are going on... Summertime! It's filled with all kinds of fun in the sun, BBQ's, river trips, delicious fruit, warm nights, and one of my all time favorites...THE FAIR!!

So last night we made our annual trip to the Orange County Fair and had a great time as usual.  We did all my favorites things and had a super fun night with some great friends that luckily didn't mind sticking to my very adamant agenda.  See I'm not your typical fair goer, in that I won't go on any of the rides (mainly due to my horrible motion sickness and partly due to a torturous experience I had on the Zipper as child.)  But I do have a list of some other absolute favorite things to do while I'm there.  Such as, grab a beer or two, watch my husband drop all our life savings on each every game until he conquers them, walk through the exhibits, check out all the livestock, try some fun food, and of course my ALL TIME FAVORITE WHOLE PURPOSE FOR EVEN GOING TO THE FAIR.......THE PIG RACES!!!!!  Soooo fun, if you've never been you have to check it out!!

So we definitely conquered everything I set out to do and I left feeling fully satisfied with my annual fair trip.  And I also felt fully satisfied in my stomach from all the fair food I devoured.  See I'm not really sure how I got so darn full since I distinctly remember telling myself to take it easy on the food.  Because along with my oh-so-many other problems/bad luck/neurosis, whatever you want to call them, I tend to have a very sensitive stomach.  So to avoid any future problems, I decided I wasn't going to get anything for myself and settled on the idea that I would just have a bite of whatever everyone else got.  That way I could avoid getting sick from eating.

Well.... it seems I tasted more than I planned because as I was hurling my brains out in the bathroom at 3 am this morning, flashes of chili cheese dogs, chili cheese fries, kettle corn, funnel cake, deep fried everything, beer, and god knows what else... were going through my head (and at risk of being too graphic, through my mouth too!)  

FML...so there went a great night at the fair right down the toilet...literally. But I guess lesson learned because as my sister so directly pointed out,  I'm the idiot. See, my whole theory on not buying my own food to avoid any poisoning, was pretty damn stupid, because why would my stomach care whether I bought the food or someone else did?  Food poisoning is food poisoning any way you slice it, or eat it.  

So as I sit on the couch with my diet sprite, surrounded by crackers and probably not smelling so hot, thinking that the fair is not so fair this year...I guess I'm just gonna chalk it up to.... Shit Happens.... oh wait, I mean Life Happens. :) 

Our Wedding

i carry your heart with me


i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

~E.E. Cummings

Here's to being so thankful for the way....Life Happens.