Time...

"Time heals what reason cannot" - Seneca

The bottom dropped out....and I haven't been able to find the words to explain or to make sense of it.  Where are those words?  I pray to find them every day.  I pray for a lot of things every day.

I pray for understanding and compassion and clarity and forgiveness and answers and strength.  I find pieces of those things from time to time but it doesn't seem to be enough.  I try to hold tight to those pieces but they slip through my fingers like sand.  I need more.  Maybe that is the answer...I just needed more.

But why? Can someone please tell me why?!

Most days I feel like I'm standing still in one spot and the world is moving at warp speed around me.  So I try to move and I only seem to spin in the same spot until I get dizzy and fall down.  Luckily someone always seems to pick me up and stand me upright.  Maybe those are angels....they feel like angels.

So I stand, with tears in my eyes, pain in my chest and the realization that my heart has failed me.  How can you ever get passed that thought?  How can you move forward from there?

The consensus is Time...

Please wake me up when Time has passed and Life Happens again...